Kahinatnan

May nabasa ako sa Twitter, bakit daw hindi na restful ang weekends? Napag-isip ako at parang I agree. After the pandemic, it feels like nag-iba ang kalidad ng dayoff ko which fall on a weekend. Ang dami kong nagagawa dati like watching movies or reading books. Makapagsusulat pa ako ng blog at rumarampage kung saan-saan. Ngayon, all I want is to lay down on bed. I'm so unproductive that it would last until the sun sets. Ending, tapos na agad ang isang araw. Napakabilis ng oras! Kaya naman I would drag myself to go out the following day - either watch the sunset sa Manila Bay, walk sa UP oval o magkape sa Shell Station para lang may kahinatnan ang araw ko. Hindi pwedeng nakatihaya lang akiz tapos may pasok na ulit, de vaahhh?

Kayo mga ateng, how's the quality of your restdays?

Anyways, I'm writing this while listening to the Christmas album of Leona Lewis. Let's all enjoy her festive song One More Sleep...

♫ 'Cause I've got five more nights of sleeping on my own

Four more days until you're coming home

Three more dreams of you and mistletoe

Two more reasons why I love you so

I've got five more nights until you're next to me

Four more days of being lonely

Three more wishes, I can barely breathe

If I can make it to Christmas Eve then it's

One more sleep (one more sleep until it's Christmas)

One more sleep (Can't believe how much I missed us)

One more sleep (One more sleep until it's Christmas)

One more sleep ♪

Sumaglit

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During our peak obsession kay gwapulis Richard Pangilinan, may isa tayong nakakiskisang siko dito, si Ate Froglita. Nagko-comment lang siya noong una kasi pare-pareho tayo ng pantasya hanggang sa magpalitan kami ng online messages at nagkita sa personal. 

It was in Trinoma and I was wearing this yellow shirt. Sa escalator kami unang nagkasalubong at dinala niya ako para lumaps sa Abe's. First time kong kumain sa ganoong lugar. Binigyan niya ako ng NBS gift check na pinambili ko ng Dear Migs. Alam niya na mahilig ako sa gay indie films and he influenced me to broaden my taste and watch world cinema such as The Naked Civil Servant and La Ley Del Deseo. He's the reason why I became a fan of Pedro Almodóvar. Pinahiram niya rin sa akin ang personal copy niya ng Naiibang Pag-ibig book ni Dra. Margie Holmes and gave me VCDs of Liberated and Bridal Shower. 

Siya ang nagbigay daan para first time kong maranasan ang panonood ng theater play sa CCP at ballet show sa Aliw Theater. We also ate somewhere in Malate sabay turo sa Café Adriatico na paboritong kainan ng mga beki. Pero sa lahat ng 'yan, isa siya sa kauna-unahang nagtiwala sa kakayahan kong magsulat. Ni-refer niya ako sa isang kolumnista na nakatira sa Makati. I went there after my shift. Met the guy and was actually a former ambassador but our writing styles didn't match. Pang-class A ang hinahanap eh pang-class DE ang ganda ko. CHAR! Still, it was a memorable experience.

After a few years of bonding, sadly eh natuldukan ang aming pagkakaibigan. This was before COVID pa. But it didn't end bitter at all. I think. Messages stopped and I was unfriended. I didn't ask for any reasons. 

Recently, naalala ko siya dahil madalas mabanggit sa isang popular page ang isa niyang photographer friend. I searched for his FB profile and found out he died. I was shocked and didn't know how to feel. Suddenly remembered his beautiful contribution in my life. I'm writing this to let him know that wherever he is, I value our friendship so much and I don't want to forget it. How I wish I reached out and rekindled our connection but I guess life has a different plan.

Salamat, Ate Froglita. You're one of the people who made an impact in my life. You believed in me when I doubted my skills. Masaya ako na sumaglit ka sa buhay ko. Aalalahanin kita habang binabasa itong magasin na ikaw ang editor-in-chief. Proud ako na nakilala ko ang isang tulad mo. You will always be included in my prayers.